A lot has Happened

Okay so here is just a list of what has happened...

At work-
I am now training horses and everyone has quit except for Cameron and I, but both of us are thinking about quiting too. My Boss has now become ... well... for lack of a better discription, kinda the devil herself. She has taken everything out of the job that use to make it fun, we had a relaxed schedule because we are all in high school still and now she is demanding us be there even though we are still getting the work done and then if we call in and tell her we cant make it, like she told us to, we get an ear full for no reason. So pretty much I'm now looking for another job. I am going to miss working with the horses, but I'm not going to miss Darla (my boss).

At School-
I'm in home school now and I was going to try and graduate this year but the stress load of the homework I had was overwhelming and I couldn't handle it. I was crying everyday, true there were other things causing the emotional melt down, but that was a major cause of it. I'm now going to graduate next year as a Del Oro Grad, with the year that I was going to originally before this whole fiasco started. I still don't know how I feel about that. A part of me is sad because I want to be done with highschool, and I'm sick of it... but another part of me is happy because I'm finally finding new friends (granted most of them are graduating this year :( ) and I can still be in marching band and winter guard... I'm just ready to be in college... OH! But, I will be able to go to Sierra next year while going to Del Oro, so that I am happy about and if I do that Sierra is free while I am still in High School :D Wahahahaha

Social Life-
It is good. Cameron is my best girl friend, and I am back together with Chris. (ya ya if you didn't like him shut your trap, I don't care. I'm happy with him) I have some friends that I didn't think I would ever have and I'm being invited to come over to hang, party, sleep, and its a lot of fun.

Home-
Uh... well... ya lets leave that alone for right now.

Physical-
I haven't been working out much and I can feel it. I feel so gross its not even funny... bleh. And I did something the other day and I felt really weak it was really annoying. I need to start running again and working out. Speaking of which I am going to go do that right now.

So pretty much mostly everything is okay. Some things still need a little work and that's okay. Nothing is perfect, nor is anyone. For those of you who may read this in my family who met Chris and don't like him... Ya he hurt me... worse then anyone ever has... but you can't tell me that if your husband or the person you love had left you when you were dating that it wouldn't have hurt you... That kinda happens when the one you love leaves you. Him and I are back together, and I'm not going to say that I fully trust him, because I don't and he knows that. But I know a husband and wife who are still together and the wife is still working on trusting her husband again after something that happened. You don't just give up on the person you love... and even though him and I were apart for 4 months, I don't think I ever stopped loving him... Because you can't just stop loving someone if it is true love. It doesn't work that way. And you don't really know him... he is funny, and fun to be around, him and I can joke around and tease each other, I feel excepted around him, I'm comfortable, and I'm happy... True he isn't mormon, and yes that kinda bothers me, because I want to marry in the temple, but I'm not going to limit my search to mormon boys because there are a lot of them who are NOT as good as people think. I guess what I am trying to say is back off. I'm happy again, and I have my friend, boyfriend, and partner back. Weather it lasts until I die, just a few years, or a couple months, at the moment I am happy again... and if it does end it is going to hurt I know that... but why can't I dwell in the present, not the past or the future. We need to learn from the past, not dwell in it, and we need to focus on the present, not live in the future. That is what I am doing right now. And I have to focus on that otherwise I will get to caught up in everything else and I'll loose it again.
So there you have it. I'm happy, so be happy for me, please. I love you all. See ya around!
Chow!